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okay like finally i can get through the freaking internet connection.that stupid taiwan earthquake totally shooke my whole connection.uhh,i felt so so buggened alright!zomg.so okay.christams season's been great,uh huh.first of all,everything/anything that's happening between hunn and i,is totally UNOFFICIAL.yes,i'm insane,so be it.i dont have,even the slightest clue whats going through my,dying majorly puny brain.sometimes,i'd just scream at myself and go fuck it,i dont fucking care.then i'll cry,then i'll think about it again.so i'm not going to go fucking it anymore.uhh,honestly i care,coz at the end of the day,i'm gonna look like some fucking mean asshole in the book of history.so what if,the confession was made,from the both of us,and i did screw up whatever i had with hunn.i guess rockstar was worth it.i know i wont screw it up this time.coz i dont plan to.its too fucking confusing.i'm waiting for my fucking funeral,God forbids.uhh,i've had enough of people making me tear.soooooooo,

my new year resolutions:
dont screw up things with rockstar,

dont screw up things with the family,

pass 5 subjects during assesments,

do good for N levels,and move to sec 5,

be a good girl,

no more tears in 2007. (:

uh huh,all must be accomplished.okay,so brother,tina and i watched night at the museum.AWESOME(: okay,i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;i miss the happiness,i miss the tears.

hello(:
so christmas is coming.yay!i'm happy and kinda sad at the same time though.uhh goodness.i dont know whats happening.uh huh,oh well.these few days brother and i have been spending time with godparents.i swear,they're the best(: at least there are people who actually that niceeeeee.haha okay.i wanna change my phone.its damn screwed already.ohh mann.

another sad song with nothing to say.

i feel kinda grumpy now.sooooo,ohh ya!you know the shit that i was talking about in the previous post was tina.uh huh.ohh whatever.i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;i asked you to stay,but you said there's no way.

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so okay,i've been hooked on to lithium for too freakingggggg long man.and it ends tonight by all american rejects.haha,i melt for these songs(: life's been okay i guess?uh huh.i wanna meet roland and jen soon.coz i've got so much to tell them.so some shit needs to use the com.i'll explain later>:(



;soon i know i'll wake from this dream.

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so okay,i guess everything's out?am i being a dumb ass,yet again?fuck it really.i'm really giving up on myself here.when i think i'm done with trying,i let it out.zomg,okay so maybe i should look at it in a more,positive way?but even before anything,i'm feeling scared already.i'm hoping for NO SLASHING MOMENTS IN 2007.please please,i'm begging already.i'll bend on my knees if i have to.
i want you to know that i'm not just some other girl who's dying to have someone to hold her hand.coz honestly,i already am.and i dont wanna let go,but if this chance that i'm given is going to hurt me yet once again.then,i havent any choice have i?

I can't hold on to me,wonder what's wrong with me.

so maybe i'm half doomed,half lucky.oh man,fuck it.
so mas went back to indonesia already): i miss her.mum's helping me with the housework and cooking and stuff.we feel tired by the end of the day.haha,but its a super fresh cool feeling.coz our cooking is to die for,literally.sooooo,we've watched open season and happy feet and texas chainsaw massacre.niceeeeee.texas chainsaw was so gory alright.but its nice and it was true like once before?zomg.i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;prove to me that you're not just some other prince in some fairytale.

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zomg,i just came back.so okay,maybe not JUST,it was like 2 days ago?uh huh.shopping at KL was oh so fun.we went for a one day trip to malacca and made our way down to portuguese settlement.zomg,the place was so so unbelievable alright.okay firstly,almost all of them there are eurasian/portuguese and plus plus,its freakingggggggggg hot alright.i thought i was gonna like burn at any second.uh huh.but it was a really nice experience.so okay,lets talk about shopping.i bought that D&G handbag and shades,and a coach wallet,zomg.i'm so so happy(: mummy bought her burberry handbag and wallet.uh huh.i feel so happy with my handbag alright!i saw countless hot people,and i mean most of them are guys?zomg,my eyes were like going crazy like some jackpot machine.haha,oookay.oh whatever,anyways,i saw the whole season 1-5 of QAF,and i felt so deprived,so i'm gonna watch it again.and no,i didnt get season 5 of course,if my papa sees it,he'll just kill me on the spot.QAF season 5 was begging and screaming,"TIA TIA TIA!JUST BUY THE FUCKING THING.THE WHOLE FUCKING SEASON PLAYS FOR 780 FUCKING MINUTES,AND YOU COULD ACTUALLY SWOON BRIAN FOR THAT LONG!".zomg,yes i know.how can i ever like such a fucking gay show?!haha,because bryan and justin looks so hot together(: i'm gonna go to godmum's house now.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;please forgive me,i cant stop loving you.get going and shoot me if its wrong.

hello(:
so okay,went to clarke quay with parents,brother and grandparents.went for dinner,walked around for awhile.supposed to go for that river taxi thing,but in the end we didnt.instead,we ended up at the haagen dazs parlour.we had like that freeaaaaaakinggg huge chocolate fondue.zomg,and i was having cough?so it kinda had that awesome and irritated sensation.haha.
i feel kinda shity now.oh man.i'm gonna miss people now.i'm gonna leave singapore tomorrow morning,and i meant morning as in 5 plus?zomg,yes i know i'm sick.but shopping and having a banging holiday with my family is the major biggie.haha,okay i heard the song Dear Mr President by Pink.its so damn niceeeeee,zomg.go Pink,KICK ASS!yay baby!shoppinggggggggggggg.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;i know better,coz you said forever.

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so okay,this i must say.i dreamt about CHANNING TATUM yesterday.zomg,and when i woke up,i began crying): i dreamt that he died.i felt so so buggened.i didnt know why.but why the fuck must he die in my dreams!i felt so sad alright): aww,channing's so cute yes?oh man.i felt like dying.how could i ever dream about something like that?humpf.after watching she's the man and again step up with roland,i felt better already.i was majorly buggened.
okay,so i'm down with flu): likw just before leaving for kl?zomg,if it worsens,my papa's totally gonna go ballistic on me.ahaha,i feel so clueless.like major.zomg,i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;for every piece of me that wants you, another piece backs away.

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first of all,elaine and i went to watch step up.ZZZZZZOMG!the lead actor is duke fro m she's the man!and yes,he's kinda hot?haha,the show was so banging yes?its damn romantic alright.i felt my knee went crazy for a moment,haha.alas,i got to see elaine yeo.yesterday was such a happy day.oh and you know i was just wondering how come so many people just vanished from my life,haha alright i sound emo.then i suddenly thought of ezaty.zomg.i didnt know that she went for obm?so okay,i was wondering if these people are still alive,or NOT?haha,i miss them alright!days/weeks/months/years go by and you meet new friends all the time?but sometimes,you look back and you feel that you kinda miss your old friends?uh huh.because when we talk once again someday,we'll be like laughing our asses off about so many things?haha,okay so i'm already kinda laughing.HEH.so alright,its confusing really?uh huh.all the ultimate rockstars?oh man,yes i dont know.wtf,i'm insane?i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;everytime i look at you,i realise what i gotta do.

hello(:
my weekends were so banging!okay okay.it was so fun.

FRIDAY
so,okay.went out with mum and godmum for ice cream at some deserted place at clementi.but it was damn niceeeee alright!haha.then we just drove around.and then boredom came along): but but!aunt vina was having a barbeque trash party.and and HER PLACE WAS FULL WITH JUNIOR FAIRSIANS.omg.they are taller than me okay!they're like only primary 6?omg,they were really scary and stuff.but they treat me niceeeee!haha,after all.i AM older despite the height right!and omg,do you know how much i just hate barbeques?its such a smelly and hot and crowded event.UHHHHH,horrible yes?haha.and you know my mum,godmum and aunt vina were from fairfield.so they were telling me all their stories.oh goodness.its downright hilarious alrightttttt!omg,i laughed and laughed till i almost pee-d in my underpants.oh and you know fairsians so didnt like convent girls?!like omg.but at the end of the day,convent girls are most hated.uh huh.i'm not talking about all.but well at least half,or majority are self denying slobbery sluts.haha,no offence.but its individual comments yes?okay yes i know.all of you will say then why are you still in a convent?because i love my friends and my uniform and those cant shuddup teachers?uh huh.they're so loved!and plus i only have to bear with given insults for 2 more years?uh huh.so have i answered you?if not,ask me yes?okay, so we move along!

SATURDAY
so,okay.went for my mum's colleague's house warming lunch at simei.so so many children,omg.the meatballs were DELICIOUSLY STEAMING HOT!haha,then watched street fighter.uh huh.jean claude van damme is so hot.so went to meet godmum again and godpa too.brother wanted to meet them and go for ice cream.oh goodness yes?i felt so miserable.2 scoops of ice creams in a row?omg,thats just so unacceptable yes?but oh well.droved to adam food centre to eat.the satay,TWO THUMBS UP MAN.uh huh.then we made our way down to serene centre for island creamery.the nutella ice cream was so so ooh la la.haha,i saw many many pictures.uh huh.i saw felissa lai's face nicely pasted at that ultra big wall.haha,driving back home was ultra ultra cool.godpa was driving,so brother made him speed like some hot wheels jeep.omg,it was so fun.then he did that left right turn thing.omg,it was hilarious.godmum almost got sick.uh huh.so went home,godparents say my house an SPCA?is it?haha,scruffy was such a good boy(: see my man's the besttttttt.and of course there's another besttttttt,and i miss him): oh man.okay now.no more?

TODAY

so,okay.i did like nothing today.papa cooked,we ate,then i felt so sleepy.like omg,haha.i feel so bored.i wanna go shoppinggggggg.omg,like YAHHHHH.okay.thats it,my uber uber lovely weekend story.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;when they all come crashing down midflight.

hello(:
just came back from gift shopping with roland.i bought many things.now i'm so so broke.you know i dreamt of ricky martin yesterday.OMGGGGGGGGG,i think i was about to go KL,then he approached me and asked directions to some hotel.i feel so dreamy now.just say it will happen,and i'll be like the happiest girl like EVER.omg.okay okay.i watched some fan video of QAF with at the beginning audio.i almost cried my eyes out): so so sad alright.i miss ELAINE YEO.i wanna go to beer box.its been 735479837485 years since i've seen that place.alright im gonna go to the toilet now.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;you're the cutest thing that i ever did see.

hello(:
i'm damn sleepy alright!i slept at 4.30.oh whatever.i'm gonna do this thing.so,laters(:


1. Single, taken or crushing?

crushing.

2. Are you happy with your life now?

ummm,yes i guess.

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?

hmmm,maybe.

4. Have you ever been heart broken?

hah,i guess not really.or maybe yes.but she was a girl you see.so it doesnt really count yes?

5. Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?

maybe,or maybe not.but you'll end up with fucked up situations thats for sure.

6. Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?

depends on what he did.

7. Have you talked about marriage to someone else before?

yes.

8. Do you want children?

oooooh.maybe.

9. How many?

2,a boy and a girl.

10. Would you consider adoption?

hmmm,maybe not.

11. If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?

ask someone to ask him?but you musnt show that that you're close to the someone.

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?

if i really love him then well OF COURSE RIGHT!

13. Do you believe in love at first sight?

hmmm,love at first sight sounds so typical.maybe crush at first sight first yes?

14. Do you believe you can change someone?

maybe.but why?

15. If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?

PARIS(: or some other places in Europe.

16. Do you give in easily when fighting?

no.unless you're like someone i really cant afford to lose.

17. Do you have feelings for anyone now?

HAHA,YES.

18. Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?

yes,once.and that was like so so sad.really it was.i cried like every night.

19. Have you ever broken a heart?

i guess so.someone told me,but i dont believe.

20. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you are deeply in love with, what will you do?

give in to my bestfriend i guess?or just stay quiet about it until someone makes the first move?

21. Are you missing anyone right now?

UH HUH.


okay,so most of them kinda gave me a big nudge on the head.oh well,i'm glad that the person that i was referring to in question 4,11,18,19 is happy.haha,who'd ever thought that one day we'll go separate ways?uh huh.omg,you know kinda just realised that i used to swoon ricky martin like major!and i was like so young then?but he was so hot.ayeeee,he still is!oh well.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;Its a private emotion that fills you tonight,and a silence falls between us,let your private emotion come to me .

hello(:
i grabbed a cab home to fetch my brother,then made my way to clementi.we ate that beef noodle thingy.head back home watched some old movies,then i went home.i wanna watch movie.theres still so many more to watch.happy feet,colic,material girls,the covenant,texas chainsaw massacre.oh man.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;All you have to do is close your eyes,Forget real life and fantasize,Erase bad thoughts start to replace,Create your own amazing place.

hello(:
watched house of wax.omg,chad is so damn hot in house of wax okay!he's like all anti social,problematic and monotonous.ahhhh,so cool.then watched she's the man and cars.HAHA,and i'm feeling hungry now.i'm outie.TOODLES(:






;cigarette butts,ripped photographs,bloody tissues,unwants,empty bottles,stained blades,WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

hello(:
went to snow city with family yesterday.and it was damn cold.its like -5 degree celsius.so like we were all like freezing in there.it was damn fun.then we slide down the slope,OMG.it was all so hilarious.i'm feeling all tired.i've been going up and down since like thursday.i feel sleepy.i need at least 12 hours of sleep.oh whatever.i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;my life just hasnt been the same,oh baby no.

hello(:
fishing was so damn fun alright!omg,i caught 6 small fishes,and they are damn cute.and no,i didnt bring it home.its too cute(: my brother caught 5,which is so unfair.i'm supposed to catch more more more than him!then we caught 2 seabass,YUM!fish for dinner you know!then it was just so damn fun!we had sandwiches,and other tiny bites.uh huh,it was GOODNESSLY GRACIOUSLY YAY!we took many pictures,so nice okay!i didnt actually like complained about waking up so early,it was worth it!oh man,i wanna go there again!and i wanna get my OWN rod(: okay okay,less talking,pictures pictures!HAHA,i'm outie.TOODLES(:

hello(:
so like going fishing with parents and brotherr tomorrow!hah,i dont know how to catch.but it kinda includes tanning too yes?ayeeee,DO ANYONE OF YOU KNOW HOW TO GET LEGAL DOWNLOADS?i dont really mind about the price.i dont wanna get fine): i thought i saw jeffrey just now.he's my kindergarten friend.and he ws damn cute okay.all tann and dimpley and oh-so-cute!but that person i saw was pretty,and maybe it was a bung.HAH,really really!jeffrey is a hardcore pretty boy!we used to bully each other on the school bus,and yes yes!it was damn fun(: and there was this guy fahmi,god knows what has happened to him): i just love to bully him.so like i always pinched his ass in the bus(: he was damn funny too.i suddenly miss kindergarten friends.and primary school ones too!like faiqah,tamlyn and denise and estee): they're all like dont know where.and i miss ms cheng and cikgu aniza too)': oh man,i feel deprived of childhood,HAHAHAHAHA.okay okay,i'm gonna sleep now.i have to wake up at 5.30): i'm outie.TOODLES(:







;coz I'm the one that loves you lately.

hello(:
watching lady and the tramp,HAH.then i kinda felt a little blue,but i'm alright now(: so here's some pictures from my brother's grad.and maybe some other random ones.































HAHA,THE ENDINGS ARE SO DAMN RANDOM.but they're so loved<3

hello(:
so like.life's great these days,at least i'm not slashing or anything anymore(: even at my worst days,i dont.lets see,parents and i have been getting really well.i mean about a 2 years ago,we were so not talking.&i was such a crap,getting into trouble,doing thing that i shouldnt.i mean the last one i still do,but it doesnt really involve my parents you see.so i guess sometimes i do feel rather blue and all,then i'll just cry and grab a stick or 2.then i'll feel better.but you know,i was just wondering,what if one day,things dont feel like its better.oh man,i guess i'm just thinking too much.maybe coz i'm bored.i dont know,really.so i've been refraining myself from doing alot of things.i starve so i can fag,hah.you know QAF's season 1 bloopers are some funny shit okayy.oh man,gale's so cute.he's just a natural clown.like when he does something funny,he doesnt go on giggling and laughing all over the floor.he just grins.HAH,and i find it downrightly adorable(: okay so i'm gonna end this with brian kinney's blooper line.i'm outie.TOODLES(:






;talking about cigars and smoking pussy.HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHHAH!

hello(:
weekends were banging!my brother's graduation on saturday,saw him singing and dancing,he never looked so cute,like ever.okay so maybe he always looked cute,but jeez,my little rascal's all grown up.and he wore the typical grad attire,oh man.then it strucked me,my brother's going into a primary school next year,then he'll be moving on to secondary school.that's damn fast you know.&&& my sweet sixteen and N's is next year,and O's is the year after next.then i'll be graduating,then the real thing begins.this reeks.okay so what i got to do now is: study,score good for my exams, and HAVE BANGING FUNS(: you know,before you actually realise whats going on,you'll be like having your grad.in pretty dresses and pretty make ups and pretty hair dos.omgggg,i'm going to be on my own in about,ummm,6 years.after my 21st birthday i'll be working and earning money and finally really,REALLY thinking for myself.oh man,okay i should stop thinking and just go with the flow right.yes i should,tralalas.
so the weekends with my family.fun,annoying,hilarious.so we're gonna go fishing this weekend(: YAYYYY!then before we know it,we'll be off for KL for FUN.hah,i called mr rockstar at 0036am.he was swimming and partying with 6 heads.O's are gonna be over for him,the fun of parting and partly worrying about results,HAH.okay so i'm like hungry now.i'm gonna have breakfast then i'll be back i hope,hah.ahhh,i'm outie.TOODLES(:




;when i actually thought that it could happen once again.

hello(:
met roland at 8,omggggg.i really didnt have enough sleep okayy.we watched crossroads,drank a little.i feel damn tired now.i need sleep,really.oh i'm supposed to meet mer and jar tomorrow,i dont want i dont want!i wanna sleeeeeeeep hah,i called mr rockstar yesterday,and like omg.he's damn retarded okay. oh my dad plans to go to KL next month,like yay.shopping non stop!and and and,i wanna do henna!TRALALAS.oh and that stupid tata young's also going to KL on the 11th.i'm so gonna do a banner that says,fuck you thailand slut.HAH,my mummy hates her too.ahhh,i'm outie.TOODLES(:





;i used think i had the answers to everything.